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Wednesday 31 July 2019

Time flies too fast!

It's been another month since my last post and I just don't know where the time is going.
I'll admit that I've been quite directionless of late, not being able to settle to anything and flitting constantly from one project to another. I think, if I'm really honest, I've been suffering from depression. It varies from mild to almost a deep black pit.

Since my son came back a few weeks ago, things have improved and I've been tackling some long neglected jobs, like my poor garden. The trouble is, I've overdone it again and now I feel worn out! This earnt me a thorough lecture from both son and partner so I sulked a bit but they are right!

My son helped me to build this arch for the beans, which are finally romping away since this photo. Nettle fertiliser and rain have heped.

 This was the state of the front garden which has been thoroughly neglected in favour of the potager! It took me the whole weekend in searing heat to clear it.
 I also built a low dry stone wall to stop the grass from encroaching again and it was good to find the original path below all the weeds! The rest of the garden is still overgrown, but the ponies will eat that down in no time!
So, today I'm feeling a little better, my lovely son has been so sweet and I'm being a little gentle with myuself. I have a craft group to go to this afternoon which will do me good. They're lovely ladies who just natter and paint or sew. It's good to be part of a group again.

Where I go next with my business plans though is anyones guess!
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5 comments:

  1. Morning's Minion31 July 2019 at 04:45

    Our creative plans and the desire to do things outstrip our reserves of physical energy. I think this frustration can lead to discouragement/depression. Part of the fibro package seems to be taking a frequent 'hit' from over doing.
    I've never found real answers---being retired means I can postpone projects when energy fails. I suppose it amounts to acceptance of what can't be 'cured' and the constant effort to find positive 'work-arounds.'
    Sending you a virtual 'hug' of understanding!

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    1. Yarrow1 August 2019 at 08:34

      Aaah, MM, you're so right, thank you and sending a hug back.xxx

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  2. Leanna31 July 2019 at 08:56

    Why do we beat ourselves up like this. We both over do and then pay for it with pain. Regardless of our illnesses, we will always suffer. I have come to terms with this and whenever I have an open window or painless day I use it to it's limits because I don't know when I will be able to do anything again. Depression is all part of it too. We just have to do what we can to get by. ((((((HUGS)))))) to you my precious friend.

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  3. Yarrow1 August 2019 at 08:35

    Thank you so much Leanna, it's good to be understood.xxxx

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  4. Rain 3 August 2019 at 12:24

    Hi Yarrow, I'm sorry about your depression. I can definitely relate. And even the smallest little tasks that used to bring joy seem too challenging. I'm so glad your son's visit helped you see a little light! Keep it up and enjoy your group!!!

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